Saturday, January 23, 2010

Some call it a nightmare, others say its a waking-up call....

I say its losing someone who meant a lot to many people....
16th of January 2009, I was awakened by the shocking news of that someone I knew had just passed away. I say just because he had passed away merely hours before I got the news. I just sat there at the edge of my bed totally and utterly enveloped in shock!! Somehow when I went to sleep hours before that, never did I imagine that this is how the following day would be...

Ganesha... I may not have spoken to you or even known you as well as some of your very close friends and batchmates but somehow you leaving us has left a huge impact.
Being there at the mortuary that day, after the memorials and all... it was and still IS a huge loss that you have left us. I am definitely not wrong when I say that you have touched many people's life in so many different ways.

And now you get to look over all those who you hold dearly and close to your heart. Rest in peace my friend! Rest in Peace. =)

Monday, December 28, 2009

Nothing you can say is gonna justify your actions.

Over the years I have come to know many people from different walks of life. Although each one of them are truly an amazing experience for me, somehow there is to some certain degree a common ground between all of them. *Dun get me wrong. I'm not standing here saying that everyone else is wrong and I'm perfect. I know I'm not perfect and I'm most likely included in this category of people too*

'PEOPLE MAKE USE OF OTHER PEOPLE TO GET WHAT THEY WANT & AFTER THAT - GOODBYE!!'

Seriously!??
Okay, here's the deal. If you need something from someone how about trying to ask them instead of putting on an act? Arrggghh.... I'm so pissed!!

Sunday, December 6, 2009

Final year!!

Hey guys, I know its been months since I posted a blog.. Lotsa things have happened since my last post! As you guys already know somehow or rather i managed to squeeze myself into final year of MBBS! Yay for me! It was a joyous day but at the same time I felt sad for those of my friends who did not make it across into final year.. Sadness aside. Let's talk about fun.
ELECTIVES!! Oh My God! It was 4 weeks of pure utter fun 24 hours a day 7 days a week. Singapore was amazing! Plus the group of friends that were there with me - awesomeness!! To begin with electives in Singapore was so amazing, chilled and at the same time I learnt so many things. Anyone interested to do their electives there please do so no hesitation needed. You will have a blast. I'm gonna keep it short and simple here because if I go into details it might take days!! To summarize, elective period was definately something I will never forget. It was just toooooo much fun! Hahaha...
After that 4 weeks of fun and 2 weeks sitting at home doing nothing, coming back to Malacca was like being forced back into hell after winning a visit to heaven! =( and to make matters worse the 'stupid' college decided to scrap our senior clerkship and not reshuffle our groups. *I was really looking forward to both of those things. Way to go MMMC!!* And then to add salt to my injuries, my first posting was Medicine in freaking Muar!! Ugghhh!!! Final year is hectic. No joke but in a way its making me work a lot harder i guess.. I dunno.. hehehe.. anyways yeah.. updated blog!! Yahoo!!!!

Saturday, October 10, 2009

It's finally Official!!

Dun worry I'm not getting married or anything. *like that thought would ever cross yr minds kan? =P* As of today, I'm now officially a final year medical student! *woots*
Ever since our MCQ paper *which I would like to make a note was like a paper from H.E.L.L!!* ended on Monday, I *and I'm sure many of my batch mates* were eagerly awaiting the announcement of our results. Much to our dismay, news circulated that the results would only be out on Friday morning, which was 4 days away!! WTH right? Usually the results would be released that evening or latest the following morning. But just so that we would drive ourselves mad awaiting our results, MMMC management decided to release it on Friday!
Upon realising that there is no use staying in Malacca doing nothing, I decided to come back home! *at least I will be well fed back home kan?* So off to JB did I go!
Although I was home, you would think I would be more relaxed and all but NOO!!! Throughout this whole week the one thing that kept playing again and again in my head was 'Friday is coming soon. You better hope you passed.' The whole 4 days were just about me lazing around trying to get my mind off this exam thingy but to no avail!
Finally Friday arrived. I woke up at 730am and sat myself in front of the computer. On FB one could see all the status of my classmates counting down the release of the result. * In our defense, we were informed that it will be released at 10am* The wait seemed forever.. Then finally the clock chimed signifying 10am but no news of the results.. 1010am still no news... 11am NO FREAKING NEWS bout the results..
Then finally the news that it will only be released at 200pm. AARRRGGgggHHHHH!!!! The agony! The anger.. Hahahaha.... * its all so funny now that I think back about it*
But I'm glad it all ended on a very happy note for me.

To all my fellow batch mates who got through P2S1: Go ahead and enjoy your electives. And job well done! We survived study 1.5 years in Malacca, got through study break and have finally conquered P2S1!!! Our next target P2S2.. But first..... let's party!!!

To those who didnt get through: Don't give up hope! Dun throw in the towel just yet! Use the opportunity given to you and show them that you deserve to be in final year because I know every single one of you deserve it! Show them that okay? Good luck guys!!

Saturday, October 3, 2009

Mid-Autumn Festival!

As many already know and some may not, tomorrow (3rd October 2009) is the Mid-Autumn Festival or also know as the Lantern or Mooncake Festival. Not many people know this but supposedly the moon is its fullest and roundest on this day! So when you get the chance tomorrow try to catch the glimpse of the moon tomorrow night... =)
The most common story associated with this festival is that of Chang'e being lifted to the moon on this day. Chang'e is the Chinese goddess of the Moon. Below are a few versions of the story related to Chang'e courtesy of Wikipedia. Enjoy reading guy!!

Version 1:
Once upon a time, the earth had ten suns. They burned the crops and people suffered infertility. Houyi sympathized with humans, so he decided to shoot down nine suns and leave one for the benefit of the people. After he shot down the suns, he was treated as a hero. He had a beautiful wife named Chang'e, and they lived happily together. Houyi had a many apprentices; they followed him to learn hunting. One day, on Houyi’s way back home, the emperor of the immortals gave Houyi two pills, each of which granted eternal life as a reward for shooting down the suns, one was for Houyi, and the other for his wife. He warned Houyi, “Make no haste to swallow the pill.” Houyi was to wait until New Years Day, on which he and Chang'e were supposed to eat the pills together. Chang’e put the pill in her jewelry box for safekeeping. But Peng, one of Houyi’s apprentices, discovered their secret and decided to steal the pill. One day, when Houyi and other apprentices went to the mountain, Peng pretended to be sick so that he could stay home. After everyone had gone to the mountain, Peng sneaked into Chang’e’s room and forced her to give him the pill. Chang’e knew she couldn't fight Peng, so she ate the pill herself. However, after eating it alone, she began to float. Unable to come back to earth, she took flight and flew far, far away. She did not want to leave her husband, so she stopped at the moon, which is the body closest to Earth. After Houyi found out what happened, he was very angry and heartbroken. He looked up into the night and called Chang’e’s name. He discovered that inside the moon there was a lady’s shadow that look like Chang’e, so he ran and ran and tried to reach the moon. He failed due to the wind.

Version 2:

Houyi was an immortal, while Chang'e was a beautiful young girl, working in the Jade Emperor's (Emperor of Heaven) Palace as the attendant to the Queen Mother of the West (wife of the Jade Emperor), just before her marriage. One day, Houyi aroused the jealousy of the other immortals, who then slandered him before the Jade Emperor. Houyi and his wife, Chang'e, were subsequently banished from heaven, and forced to live by hunting on earth. He became a famous archer. Now at this time, there were 10 suns, in the form of Three-legged birds, residing in a mulberry tree in the eastern sea; each day one of the sun birds would have to travel around the world on a carriage, driven by Xihe, the 'mother' of the suns. One day, all 10 of the suns circled together, causing the earth to burn. Emperor Yao, the Emperor of China, commanded Houyi to shoot down all but one of the suns. Upon the completion of his task, the Emperor rewarded Houyi with a pill that granted eternal life, and advised him: "Make no haste to swallow this pill; first prepare yourself with prayer and fasting for a year". Houyi took the pill home and hid it under a rafter, while he began healing his spirit. While Houyi was healing his spirit, Houyi was summoned again by the emperor. Chang'e, noticing a white beam of light beckoning from the rafters, discovered the pill, which she swallowed. Immediately, she found that she could fly. At that moment, Houyi returned home, and, realizing what had happened, began to reprimand her. Chang'e flew out the window into the sky. With a bow in hand, Houyi sped after her, and the pursuit continued halfway across the heavens. Finally, Houyi had to return to the Earth because of the force of the wind. Chang'e reached the moon, and breathless, she coughed. Part of the pill fell out from her mouth. Now, the hare was already on the moon, and Chang'e commanded the animal to make another pill from it, so that she could return to earth to her husband. As of today, the hare is still pounding herbs, trying to make the pill. As for Houyi, he built himself a palace in the sun as "Yang" (the male principle), with Chang'e as "Yin" (the female principle). Once a year, on the 15th day of the full moon, Houyi visits his wife. That is why, that night, the moon is full and beautiful.


Version 3:

The earth once had ten suns circling over it, each taking turn to illuminate the earth. One day, however, all ten suns appeared together, scorching the earth with their heat. Houyi, a strong and tyrannical archer, saved the earth by shooting down nine of the suns. He eventually became King, but grew to become a despot. One day, Houyi stole the elixir of life from a goddess. However, his beautiful wife, Chang'e, drank it in order to save the people from her husband’s tyrannical rule. After drinking it, she found herself floating, and flew to the moon. Houyi loved his divinely beautiful wife so much, he did not shoot down the moon.


Version 4:

Another version, however, had it that Chang'e and Houyi were immortals living in heaven. One day, the ten sons of the Jade Emperor transformed into ten suns, causing the earth to get scorched. Having failed to order his sons to stop ruining the earth, the Jade Emperor summoned Houyi for help. Houyi, using his legendary archery skills, shot down nine of the sons, but spared one son to be the sun. The Jade Emperor was obviously displeased with Houyi’s solution to save the earth. As punishment, he banished Houyi and Chang'e to live as mere mortals on earth. Seeing that Chang'e felt extremely miserable over her loss of immortality, Houyi decided to journey on a long, perilous quest to find the pill of immortality so that the couple could be immortals again. At the end of his quest, he met the Queen Mother of the West, who agreed to give him the pill, but warned him that each person would only need half a pill to regain immortality. Houyi brought the pill home and stored it in a case. He warned Chang'e not to open the case, and then left home for a while. Like Pandora in Greek mythology, Chang'e became curious. She opened up the case and found the pill, just as Houyi was returning home. Nervous that Houyi would catch her, discovering the contents of the case, she accidentally swallowed the entire pill, and started to float into the sky because of the overdose. Although Houyi wanted to shoot her in order to prevent her from floating further, he could not bear to aim the arrow at her. Chang'e kept on floating until she landed on the moon. While she became lonely on the moon without her husband, she did have company. A jade rabbit, who manufactured elixirs, also lived on the moon.


Version 5:

In a popular school version, Houyi was a lazy boy who did nothing but to practice his archery. He practiced day and night until he became the greatest archer in the world. One day, the ten suns all assembled around the earth. Their presence destroyed all vegetation, and hundreds of thousands were perishing. The King, who was desperate, offered his crown to anyone who could shoot down the suns. Houyi answered his call. He shot down nine of the suns, and as he pulled his bow to shoot the last one, the King stopped him. Saying the earth must have one sun. Houyi then became the next King. He was pampered to the extent that he wanted to be King forever. He called his advisors to look for a way to make him immortal. His advisors found a way. They found a recipe for the Pill of Immortality. It required 100 adolescent boys to be ground into a biscuit like a pill. Every night he was supposed to grind one boy. On the hundredth night, his wife Chang'e could not bear to watch her husband become the tyrannical dictator for eternity. She prayed to Xi Wang Mu for help. She stole the pill, with Houyi shooting arrows at her, and flew to the moon grabbing a rabbit to keep her company. So the Chinese say that if you look up at the moon to this day you can sometimes see a rabbit making moon cakes.


Keeping in Touch...

Over the years I have met many people. Some have stuck with me till today. Some are still hanging in there and there are some who have just vanished. Keeping in touch with people we have met. People we come to call as our friends. As many people find *and so do I at certain times*, keeping in touch is a difficult thing to do.
It is my personal opinion that even with the help of today's technology a.k.a the INTERNET, keeping in touch with other people has become hard. Quite to the contrary, posting a blog or constantly updating your on Facebook or Twitter is NOT keeping in touch with people. These are people who actually at some point of time if not always, mean or meant something to you. If you expect these people to know what's happening in your life through your blog, then all that says to me is what is the difference between them and a normal person who is reading your blog??
As much as keeping in touch is difficult, there are certain people in our life that we actually would MAKE time to sit down and tell them about stuff happening to us. Be that through a chat window over the net, a personalised email, or a phone call. That shows effort. Expecting someone to know it through your status updates is unfair to that person!
I know i regret losing contact with some of my friends but i still take some amount of initiative to try and get in contact with them once again.
Over the years what I have come to realise is that when you are reduced to know what's happening in your friend's life through social networking websites, then something is wrong in that friendship. You either need to have a talk with that friend or just let that friendship go...
Hmmmm.... I'm actually venting because I'm pissed and disappointed at certain people in my life who have reduced me to that situation. Whether it is my fault or not, I do not know because it just happened and I suddenly realise that I'm pushed to the curb!! It's sad and hurtful...
Anyways, try to make and effort to keep in touch with people who mean something to you in your life okay? Pick up that phone and give that person a call. Text or email that person if you are too busy.
Busy!! That's another thing I don't understand. How long will it take you to send an text message or to reply one?? An hour is it? Hardly 2 minutes. And if that person cannot do that, then I must say 'walk away'! That person is not worthy of your time!! Its 1am now and I'm blogging instead of studying for my finals because I'm pissed!! Ugggghhhhhhh!!!!

Sunday, September 27, 2009

Sigh of Relief....but is it really??

OMG!! It's finally over... Truth be told I never thought I would be this tensed up about an exam.. But I guess as the days went by the reality and the seriousness of the situation kinda kicked in and that did not do good to my stress level..
Here's the deal. I don't know what you guys mean when you say 'Oh! I'm so scared for the exam. I'm so not ready. I'm so scared I'm gonna fail!' When you hear those words coming out of my mouth I really mean it. If I don't I just wouldn't say it.
So 2 weeks of study break didn't do any justice to my studying. *In case you are wondering what I'm rambling about... I just sat for my 4th year medical school finals* Actually let's be honest.. I didn't do justice to my 2 week study break. Let's not say where the time went and what I was doing instead of burying my sad face in my books. But yeah! It just flew by and the next thing I know I just have a few more days left for my exams to start.
Tried to stuff my brain with as much stuff as I could. I was freaking out but outside I think I kinda held it pretty well. Wouldn't say I was calm and collected but at the same time I was screaming hysterically!
I have to thank a friend of mine who made sure I studied every night. Gurpreet, thank you so much! I hope all those nights and morning at Mcd studying will pay off. You are a good friend!
So back to ME! =) Towards the end, my sleeping hours were becoming lesser and lesser. * I guess that's normal in everyone's case right?*
As much as I tried to get done, it seemed like there was more that was left undone. Still keeping it together I just tried to push through. Do I regret the way that I studies? Hell Yeah! I should have started way earlier and been more hardworking! I take all the blame..*Duh! Who else can I blame kan?*
I sat for my first exam on Saturday. It was a long case. *We are given a patient to clerk history, examine them and finally come up with a diagnosis for their condition* It was bad enough that I was on the last day. That morning I find out I'm one of the last few to take the exam too!! So I wait and wait and wait till freaking 12.45pm before I am taken to my patient. I was kinda happy to get a Pediatric case not that I was hoping for one or that I was good in Peads. It was the one subject that I was least ready for. So yeah...although it was just a bronchial asthma case, my history wasn't perfect and I was not able to answer all the questions asked. *sad*
Once they let me go, I was having mixed feelings. It wasn't good nor bad...more of uneasiness.. guess I was just eager to know if I passed or not because deep down I don't wanna fail and not move on to final year with everyone else.
So anyways, I get home at about 2.45pm and there is just this sense of relief inside. It was like I could breathe again or something. I was so tired, exhausted and drained out. That's when I realised the condition my room was in. I was like 'OMG!!' hahaha...but I am glad that I managed to push myself through the exam.. and now I have to hit the books for my OSCE which is gonna start in like 10 hours time. Hopefully that goes well and i'll be halfway done with P2S1. =)