A State of Confusion - In Utter Mess

Well I guess it's safe to say m confused...or I should say 'conspewed' (inside joke). Trying to understand people and decipher their codes is just too confusing and tiring. So my conclusion is - If you are gonna be vague with me, I shall be vague with you! If you are gonna be 'civil' with me, then 'civil' I shall be too. And last but not least, if you are gonna use me for our own benefits, then FULLSTOP!
I have wasted enough time trying to make everything and anything work because I don't want to lose some people. But apparently they don't mind losing me! WTF!!! I'm not some 'thing' that you remember exist only when time suits you or when you need something! I'm human just like you and I thought we were friends! Guess the circumstances under which we met was the real reason afterall!
Great! Now I'm pissed!! Anyways that's like 10% of the load of my chest! Expect more in days to come! Cya guys!!